Prayer Requests 9/26/07
Hey guys,
I've been all over the place since I've been back in chambana, but i'm extremely thankful to be here!!! I don't know where i'm going to be next year so i want to use my time down here wisely and i desperately want to grow and build my faith as much as possible!!! so much has been happening that i don't know where to begin. God is really working on building my character and has been slowly breaking me apart. areas that i definitely need to work on:
- to fight: i feel like the parable? of the rich man... i'm asking jesus what i must do to obtain eternal life and he's telling me to sell all my possessions. i don't want to walk away sad, but i'm really tempted. i want to offer up everything that i have easily.
- building HEALTHY relationships: i've come to ther realization that though i really love my friends i have a tendency to bend and fold to their wills. I really desire to have frienships that teach and admonish in both ways, meaning i need to step up prayerfully and speak up lovingly.
- leading a prayerful life: i want to be faithful with my prayer life, i'm really thankful for all the resources that CFC provides where i can pray. i'm definitely taking advatage of them and i really want to keep taking advantage of these opportunities. I also want to build a firm foundation of prayer and dependence on God.
- loving my family: its been really difficult to understand them, my mom keeps disinviting me home and i just found out that she thinks that i don't care for our family. since i've been back in chambana i've been trying to maintain a consistent relationship with my family, calling them atleast once a week. the calls have been really difficult with my mom, they're very short and redundant. but they've been going really great with my sister and my dad...please pray for my faithfulness and consistency.
i feel really defeated these days, God's been really breaking me apart in so many ways... i really stink!!! But i'm really thankful and i'm learning to fight. YAY!!! thanks guys... i'm really grateful of all of you and i miss you guys!!! everytime i hear about a body of christ i always think of all of you. =)
Prayer Requests 9/06/07
IMPORTANT PRAYER UPDATE, SITHA IS LEAVING!!! READ ON . . .Hey Guys!
A lot has happened to me this pass year and I am in awe of how God has transformed me. I have been blessed in indescribable ways, and through countless experiences that i was priveledged to be a part of. But my journey with Him will have to continue in a new country. Uncertain at first, but I truly know now that God has called me with a purpose in Korea. I don't know (exactly) what that purpose is, but I do have a hint. it's ok though, I just gotta go and trust.
I know i'll be tempted in many ways in Korea, and I've made it seem to many of you that this was my biggest fear. But its not... my biggest fear in going to Korea is not the temptations that will exist for me there, but my biggest fear is my own heart. I never told anyone this, but when I was living alone at eastern last year, i struggled greatly in my spiritual life. Having no accountability or friends around, i missed church more than three-fourths of the year and i didn't spend any time or effort to meet with Him. I fell away in my weakness, but still, God has been soooo faithful to me.
I'll be living alone again for the next two years, but this time, more than ever, no one will be there for me. I fell away last year, and my biggest fear is that when i return, i'll have fallen away again. With that said, I hope you guys can pray for me once in a while, as I will be praying for you.
Please pray that i will never never NEVER stop loving and seeking our God. Pray that i'll NEVER stop fighting to know Him. Pray that i'll NEVER EVER stop living my life for His glory. And pray that I'll learn what it means to depend wholly and completely on Him. For this is what I feel God has been trying to teach me this entire year. That is: to know what it truly means to depend on Him for my everything. (and of course... please pray for a church and some good accountability.)
I'll miss you guys very much! And i'm starting to get real sad. But we'll keep in touch!
I know i haven't been around much, and some of the r&r members have grown apart, and now i'm going far away.... but you guys will always be my family.
so take care for now, and i'll see you guys in a little bit. =)
thankfully and always your brother,
Sitha
**NOTE: SITHA WILL BE LEAVING THIS SATURDAY OR MONDAY, BAH! PRAY FOR HIM!!!**
